I went to the lake yesterday with my boyfriend's family for the fourth of July. He got burnt, I got tan. I didnt think I got much of a tan but we stopped by my dads before going in search of a firework watching spot. When I changed I realized I had a perfect bikini top tan. haha. Two triangles of white. Laughing I scampered outside and ran up to my boyfriend who was waiting by the garage.
"Wan'na see something funny?" he shrugged and said "Sure." I pull up my T-shirt "How cool is that?!" I think it cheered him up.
So we had found this spot earlier that would have been awesome for fireworks. Unfortunatly, we werent the only ones that thought so. There werent too many people when we got there, but the set up of porta-potties and a hand washing station didnt bode well. Plus it was misserably hot, we were tiered, and we had watched fireworks the night before in Anderson. So we opted out and went to a movie instead. Just a tip, dont spend the money to see the new Transformers movie in theaters. It was two and a half hours of not so great. I fell asleep twice. Apparently skipping the fireworks was a wise choice. I geuss they had some sort of accident with one of the fireworks going off early and stopped the show for like twenty minutes.
So, Im going to be honest. I have been doing aweful at my happiness project so far. I havent been exercising, and I think I've been eating worse than ever. I had taco bell a little bit ago. There is absolutly nothing there without meat, cheese or sour cream. I didnt eat anything meaty but I did eat something cheesy. Taco Bell sounds awesome when you've consumed a lot of cheap beer.
Im stressed out and not very happy. I need to get my shit together. Why waste your time being unhappy? So I am definatly going on a run tonight, despite being sleep deprived, cranky, stressed, and not having enough time to finish all my homework and do something healthy. I think its something that I have to make the time for, its important. I felt ridiculously fat at the lake yesterday. I know that Im not overweight or anything. But not so long ago I was in amazing shape. A yoga guru, running everyday, I was always full of energy and could bounce back from anything. Now? I run not as often and definatly not as far and I dont do yoga at all. I always feel tired and drained. The smallest of things make me exhausted. I need to change my life around. Have I been acting like the person I want to be? Definatly not. Im cranky and tired so Im bitchy and get my feelings hurt ridiculously easy. I feel sorry for my boyfriend, he gets the brunt of these childish outbursts.
Right. So, I need to finish my homework, go to work, go for a run and get to bed by ten. wake up at six and go for a run do some yoga go for a walk. get the fuck outside man. Re connect with the important stuff do homework, and go to work. Repeat.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
And So We Begin
Today is the official start of my Happiness Project. To be totally honest I didnt even know it until about five minutes ago when I checked the date...I thought that June had thirty one days. Seriously, at work last night I was wondering if today or tomarrow would be July first so I said that little rhyme about the months, apparently I got it wrong:
Thirty days have Sempember, April, May and November All the rest have thirty one, except for February which has twenty eight.
Its actually supposed to go :
Thirty days have September, April, June and November All the rest have thirty one, except for February
It has another line about leap years, but I just dont see the point.
Since I havent posted in a while I'll just do a quick review of the past week or so.
1st ) I went to my sister's birthday party down in Chico and woke up the next morning outside on a blow up matress with a wicked hangover.
2nd) I never got a call back from my interview at Bank of America, so I geuss thats a no go. what a bummer
3rd) I went to the lake with my boyfriends family and tried to wake board. I got my ass out of the water but then would quickly do a face plant. I dont think I have ever had that much water up my nose before.
4th) I started trying to find a job in Santa Rosa for the move down there in October.
And that brings us to today. July, month one
The month of July in all about Energy
Ok, to be fair, I didnt know it was the first day until rather recenlty. But I have been doing alright with the eating healthy part. I had a salad when I woke up. Weird I know, but where is breakfast defined as pancakes, cerel, or eggs? Plus, I bought this huge container of salad and I am determined to eat it all before Sunday. Salad goes bad so quickly. What the shit was I thinking?
As for the exercise part I am currently on my fourth day of doing nothing but sitting inside, doing homework on my laptop, and watching TV episodes of "Anthony Bourdain, No Reservations" on Netflix. I lead an eventful life. At least Rizzoe (my bad attitude chihuahua) likes these life choices. I think she sleeps for 90% of the day. She wakes up every once in a while to hump her teady bear, which used to be a valentines present, eat the cat's food (she refuses to eat her own) or sun bath by the window.
I know that I was wanting to go the gym four times a week, but that would mean renewing my gym membership. Seeing as that would mean paying for about fourth months of back fees and an opening fee I cant do that. Im waaaay too poor, I can hardly afford gass before my next pay check. I only have sixty dollars in my bank account and over a week before I get my next check. Im so pooor, not like I mind too much, I pride myself at being good at being poor. Its a skill set.
But I do want to start working on my uper body. I have a seriously bad case of spagetti arms, crap.
I geuss that means Im going to have to roll off the couch and go for a run, and do some yoga. Im pumped man, can hardly wait.
"Act like the person you want to be?" I think tonight at work will be an excellent training zone on this one. When Im at work I have about an hour of being happy, energetic and personable. And then I check the clock and see that its only been an hour and I immediatly feel drained and tiered and misserable. Shit! speaking of which I need to find someone to cover my shift tonight, my moms having a pary. ....alright well, I sent a text out to see if anyone can take it.
Off to a bad start on the wake up early and go to bed early front. I went to bed past midnight last night and woke up at around nine this morning. I honestly dont like waking up late. It makes me feel like a bum, I mean, its a waste of, maybe, the best time of the day. Morning is really magical time. The air is cool and dewy. Almost like it went to sleep too, and woke up new, still a little wet from birth. Its quiet out, with the occasional car door slamming closed at the hand of the early commuter. And the light is gentle and quiet. Its a peaceful time.
Cleanliness is bombing. My room is a mess. the house is a mess, I am a mess.
"Finish tasks?" Im doing pretty good, took my car in, fixed my bank account...in need to make another to do list.
Ok so today I am going on a two mile run, doing yoga for one hour, doing some core workouts, cleaning my house, walking Rizzoe (she really needs to get out more, maybe it will help her social skills?) doing homework, and going to mi madres part'ay.
Thirty days have Sempember, April, May and November All the rest have thirty one, except for February which has twenty eight.
Its actually supposed to go :
Thirty days have September, April, June and November All the rest have thirty one, except for February
It has another line about leap years, but I just dont see the point.
Since I havent posted in a while I'll just do a quick review of the past week or so.
1st ) I went to my sister's birthday party down in Chico and woke up the next morning outside on a blow up matress with a wicked hangover.
2nd) I never got a call back from my interview at Bank of America, so I geuss thats a no go. what a bummer
3rd) I went to the lake with my boyfriends family and tried to wake board. I got my ass out of the water but then would quickly do a face plant. I dont think I have ever had that much water up my nose before.
4th) I started trying to find a job in Santa Rosa for the move down there in October.
And that brings us to today. July, month one
The month of July in all about Energy
1. Energy
· Healthy Eating
· Exercise
· Act like the person you want to be
· Sleep and Wake Up
· Cleanliness. Be Organized
· Finish tasks
As for the exercise part I am currently on my fourth day of doing nothing but sitting inside, doing homework on my laptop, and watching TV episodes of "Anthony Bourdain, No Reservations" on Netflix. I lead an eventful life. At least Rizzoe (my bad attitude chihuahua) likes these life choices. I think she sleeps for 90% of the day. She wakes up every once in a while to hump her teady bear, which used to be a valentines present, eat the cat's food (she refuses to eat her own) or sun bath by the window.
I know that I was wanting to go the gym four times a week, but that would mean renewing my gym membership. Seeing as that would mean paying for about fourth months of back fees and an opening fee I cant do that. Im waaaay too poor, I can hardly afford gass before my next pay check. I only have sixty dollars in my bank account and over a week before I get my next check. Im so pooor, not like I mind too much, I pride myself at being good at being poor. Its a skill set.
But I do want to start working on my uper body. I have a seriously bad case of spagetti arms, crap.
I geuss that means Im going to have to roll off the couch and go for a run, and do some yoga. Im pumped man, can hardly wait.
"Act like the person you want to be?" I think tonight at work will be an excellent training zone on this one. When Im at work I have about an hour of being happy, energetic and personable. And then I check the clock and see that its only been an hour and I immediatly feel drained and tiered and misserable. Shit! speaking of which I need to find someone to cover my shift tonight, my moms having a pary. ....alright well, I sent a text out to see if anyone can take it.
Off to a bad start on the wake up early and go to bed early front. I went to bed past midnight last night and woke up at around nine this morning. I honestly dont like waking up late. It makes me feel like a bum, I mean, its a waste of, maybe, the best time of the day. Morning is really magical time. The air is cool and dewy. Almost like it went to sleep too, and woke up new, still a little wet from birth. Its quiet out, with the occasional car door slamming closed at the hand of the early commuter. And the light is gentle and quiet. Its a peaceful time.
Cleanliness is bombing. My room is a mess. the house is a mess, I am a mess.
"Finish tasks?" Im doing pretty good, took my car in, fixed my bank account...in need to make another to do list.
Ok so today I am going on a two mile run, doing yoga for one hour, doing some core workouts, cleaning my house, walking Rizzoe (she really needs to get out more, maybe it will help her social skills?) doing homework, and going to mi madres part'ay.
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