I went to the lake yesterday with my boyfriend's family for the fourth of July. He got burnt, I got tan. I didnt think I got much of a tan but we stopped by my dads before going in search of a firework watching spot. When I changed I realized I had a perfect bikini top tan. haha. Two triangles of white. Laughing I scampered outside and ran up to my boyfriend who was waiting by the garage.
"Wan'na see something funny?" he shrugged and said "Sure." I pull up my T-shirt "How cool is that?!" I think it cheered him up.
So we had found this spot earlier that would have been awesome for fireworks. Unfortunatly, we werent the only ones that thought so. There werent too many people when we got there, but the set up of porta-potties and a hand washing station didnt bode well. Plus it was misserably hot, we were tiered, and we had watched fireworks the night before in Anderson. So we opted out and went to a movie instead. Just a tip, dont spend the money to see the new Transformers movie in theaters. It was two and a half hours of not so great. I fell asleep twice. Apparently skipping the fireworks was a wise choice. I geuss they had some sort of accident with one of the fireworks going off early and stopped the show for like twenty minutes.
So, Im going to be honest. I have been doing aweful at my happiness project so far. I havent been exercising, and I think I've been eating worse than ever. I had taco bell a little bit ago. There is absolutly nothing there without meat, cheese or sour cream. I didnt eat anything meaty but I did eat something cheesy. Taco Bell sounds awesome when you've consumed a lot of cheap beer.
Im stressed out and not very happy. I need to get my shit together. Why waste your time being unhappy? So I am definatly going on a run tonight, despite being sleep deprived, cranky, stressed, and not having enough time to finish all my homework and do something healthy. I think its something that I have to make the time for, its important. I felt ridiculously fat at the lake yesterday. I know that Im not overweight or anything. But not so long ago I was in amazing shape. A yoga guru, running everyday, I was always full of energy and could bounce back from anything. Now? I run not as often and definatly not as far and I dont do yoga at all. I always feel tired and drained. The smallest of things make me exhausted. I need to change my life around. Have I been acting like the person I want to be? Definatly not. Im cranky and tired so Im bitchy and get my feelings hurt ridiculously easy. I feel sorry for my boyfriend, he gets the brunt of these childish outbursts.
Right. So, I need to finish my homework, go to work, go for a run and get to bed by ten. wake up at six and go for a run do some yoga go for a walk. get the fuck outside man. Re connect with the important stuff do homework, and go to work. Repeat.
Sun (with water) is an amazing mood lifter. Picture: mom's blow up pool filled with cool water. Me, floating on a pink raft, in sunshiney bliss, getting spectacularly red.
ReplyDeleteadd a cup of girly liquer and picture complete. You would have laughed so hard at me. Mom did. =)